Rockin, Rollin, Riding
One of the things about gaming life when you’re running an organisation with almost 100 people, all of whom are strangers in many ways… and many of whom never say anything….
Is that the whole thing has such an organic nature. There is a vibe to the place always, and always there is something needing to be done.
There are so many people that could do these things – or contribute to them – yet, I frequently find myself in the position of being the safety net or needing one.
People come, and people go, and the feelings of the place go up and down, in and out, like breath, like the sea…
Sometimes we’re riding high on the waves and it feels wonderful, it feels like the best place on earth. And then you get that frozen moment at the very top of the peak, one chance to look around and see the whole world, and then down, down, down you go.
It isn’t just about storms or big crashing waves, sometimes one of the more dangerous things is when things fall flat. That’s when people get bored or they drift away or they feel like nobody hears or sees them.
Like I said, the whole thing is a living breathing organism. As leader of it, quite a lot of the time you are running it either blindly or according to your rule. Neither of which approaches appeals to me as a hard and fast complete method.
My health challenges require that I be adaptable to the current situation, in my life and self. I think this helps to some extent too, with the game, with people. In lots of ways, being flexible sometimes and rigid at others. Being open to changing course in one moment, and letting go of things, knowing when to adhere to some things and not lose meaning or value in other things.
It’s difficult because people are unpredictable, they have their own lives, their own things going on, their own feelings on things. And they all have so vastly varied opinions and beliefs, they live all around the world and many never speak at all.
Certain personalities always shine through and in amongst them some quiet voices also. As well as the loud 😂
Down in the trough I am tired I am low, is it me that they mirror, or me they follow? Is it all in my mind, all the vibes and the feel? Is this point underwater even here, even real?
I dunno.
Maybe it’s coincidence and maybe it’s interconnected. But then that means we each can influence one another, and create our reality as we wish. If it’s all in our heads, let’s make it a good story.
That’s me over and out 😎